It’s a bit sad that I’m having to write this, but it’s my birthday today, so happy birthday to me. My parents don’t live near me, I don’t have a partner, my children are both under four, so apart from a couple of mates, there’s not really anybody around to celebrate it with.
I’m doing things a bit differently this year because last year I remember buying myself a cake and eating most of it. I basically did a bit of a binge eating thing and I think that is at the root of my problems. I feel low on my birthday at the moment because nobody is around and it’s a bit of a lonely occasion for me, and it’s made me realise how few people there are in my life at a key time when you should be happy.
And again, it brings home to me how much I associate using foods to try and lift my mood at bad times.
But today I’m doing it positively. I started the day with a smoothie, a vegetable smoothie, and a handful of nuts. I have had a really good lunch with salad and whole grain rice, and for my evening meal I had boiled potatoes meat and vegetables. So I’m really happy with my progress. I have not had anything bad today and I have only had a few food cravings.
The only thing I have done today which perhaps I regret a bit is I did buy a product called phen375 because I want to try a dietary supplement to see if it can help with my weight loss, I believe through hunger suppression mostly. It does claim to be a supplement that increases my metabolism, but I’m not sure I believe that.
However, I’ve done it and it will arrive next few days, so hopefully I can give it a go. Things like this do seem to be safe, and I think the worst thing that can happen is that they don’t work and not just chucked my money down the drain.
But anyway, it’s my birthday and I managed to get through one piece. Tomorrow I’m going to go for a long walk and maybe even do yoga DVDs well, so I am on the up at the moment and that’s really positive.